there is something about praise music that really opens my heart to Jesus, enough to break down my walls and bring the tears. tears of pain, tears of sorrow, tears of joy, and tears of thankfulness. is it possible to have so many feelings at one time for one thing? i know the season im in is God lead and so is my hurt. so in the midst of my pain i am thankful. thankful for what the Lord has planned even when i do not fully know what is planed. Jesus has promised me He is my husband, and im learning to live that. its a promise i can count on and take comfort in. and i feel there is another promise behind it. healing. healing of myself and of my family.